hello!

under the mental health act, i am being kept in Green Lane psychiatric hospital. this means a couple of things; i can't very well get old rolls developed that i have finished, nor can i take new pictures. we're working on those ones.

i have, however, since being in here, finished an entire album for my ambient project, "hana sumai". it is 45 minutes long, over 7 tracks. i've submitted once of the covers as a deviation. there will be 30 copies (once i finish hand printing the covers), as well as a downloadable net release. one song i've upload here; [link] - you can also go here - [link] - for my shitty website.

it's nearly christmas! i hope none of you have to spend it in a mental hospital aswell.

until next time...
x.

i haven't posted a thing in an age. i have been diagnosed with a mental illness, and have been taken out of work, giving me a lot of free time. i moved to a house out in the countryside with an acre of garden and miles of fields. but i still can't take any pictures. the one i uploaded today was the first i've taken since february. hopefully i can take some more soon. i have some old 120 rolls to develop, though. watch Let The Right One In. it's wonderful. i need an oven; instant food is hardly enough to sustain ones appetite.

bye.
xx.

for the first time, ever, i can actually see the difference between laziness, and lethargy. i guess it was something i've had to experience... i've probably taken three photos in the last 6 months, the last of which were in october. i love taking pictures, and just can't bring myself to do it anymore.

i have rolls and rolls of undeveloped film from a year or more ago, and it's just sat there. i'm usually really excited about getting stuff developed, seeing how it turns out, and it's just sat there. i just don't have the effort to do anything with anything. funny how i've let "personal problems" affect me doing the things i love.

not sure why i'm writing this... feel like a blogger or something, which is exactally the kind of thing i try to avoid.

hmm...

what happened to her? why is she banned? anyone know? her stuff were raite good.

i cleared out a bunch of shit i didn't like. and i've uploaded new photos. i hadn't uploaded anything in over 2 months until yesterday. it's ridiculous. infact, i hadn't even taken any pictures in last 2 months. now i have five new pictures i can delete in a couple of months time. the circle of life and all that.

with every positive, however, comes a negative; my sx-70 no longer works, and i have no money to purchase a 'new' one. shit.